I'd rather not pee myself.

I GOT MY TATTOO!!!

It was certainly an interesting experience. The guy, "Psycho" Mike was very friendly. I wasn't nervous at all. We talked, it was fun, and I absolutely love it.

The colors are beautiful, and it wasn't nearly as painful as I thought it would be. It did hurt, but I was able to handle it.

I'll put pictures up when I hook my laptop back to my printer.

I found an absolutely amazing item in which I MUST purchase. And that item is, a SCOOTER!!! It's not an ordinary scooter either!

It comes fully packaged with a seat, gas or electric, and even a little box to hold things in! It's so fucking great!

After much, much working, my foot has now become a nuisance. It's very swollen, and it hurts like all hell. I just want to be able to lay down and let it rest! Ugh it would be so much easier that way! I may have to talk to Geeta to see if I can take Monday off. I'm doubting it though.

I had a really cute boy hit on me. He was adorable. Blue eyes and black hair too. I hope I see him again and he hits on me. That would be awesome.

Alright, I think that's all that's going on in my world. G'night folks! Happy sleeping!

DAYS UNTIL SEX OPERATION: 7

So Ronry!

Oh the websites just keep on comin'.

www.engrish.com


DAYS UNTIR MY BERFDAY: 10

Face for Rent

Genius. I just had to put it in here.

http://http://www.comedycentral.com/shows/the_daily_show/videos/dan_bakkedahl/index.jhtml

I cry black tears

ME: im cold
DAVE: why?
ME: cause its cold in here
ME: and im not wrapped up comfortably in my blanket like a sausage
DAVE: well, why not?
ME: cause im on my computer talking to you
DAVE: it shouldn't prevent the blanket thing
ME: yeah but getting my blanket would require me to stand and move 20 feet
DAVE: hmm... true...
ME: i cant handle that kind of pressure
DAVE: yeah, you can
ME: no its too much
DAVE: bullshit
ME: i might end up having to kill myself. because i have black hair and therefore am depressed and suicidal
DAVE: yeah, black hair tends to lead to suicide
ME: yup. just one of the many steps to death by razor blade
DAVE: yeah... just don't tell me you watch indie films
ME: oh but i have to
DAVE: damn, another step closer
ME: ifc is the only channel to watch
DAVE: :-X
ME: and occasionally sundance. but thats too mainstream
ME: and i am definatley anti-mainstream
ME: because i have black hair
DAVE: OMG.. wait...
DAVE: do you listen to death metal, emo, and industrial music?
ME: of course......
DAVE: do you create open wounds on yourself at least once weekly?
ME: once an hour
ME: more like it
DAVE: oh wow, I'm surprised you're still alive
ME: and i write shitty poetry
DAVE: =-O
ME: with extra amounts of cliches
DAVE: do you use the words "rain" "soul" and "miasma"?
ME: there are other words than those?
DAVE: AHH
ME: yes, let me wallow in my pathetic exsistence whilst i write some more poetry............
DAVE: no, don't do the razorblade bath!!!



DAYS UNTIL MY DEATH: 15

I had these past two days off from work, because Geeta didn't want to schedule me because I would be in over time. SO- yesterday I cleaned the whole apartment, and everything is perfect. I also went to visit Julie at work, and I must say I was looking pretty damn awesome.

I wanted to go grocery shopping, but I bought a bunch of fluff for a pillow I'm making and some Halloween decorations, and I really wouldn't be able to handle carrying all that crap into my apartment. So instead I just bought a gallon of milk, peanut butter, and some pudding. It should hold me over for a while.

I decorated a bit for Halloween yesterday as well. I have yet to put up the cobwebs, and I'm hoping my mom will send me the Halloween stuff I left at home.

I LOVE HALLOWEEN SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!

Today I woke up quite early, for what reason I don't know, but I mailed out one of my Netflix, and got some money to do laundry, which I did. I napped a lot today. I didn't do much except make one huge ass pillow which shall be delivered at a later date this weekend.

I wanted very badly to go to a Cherry Monroe concert tomorrow, but of course, I'm stuck working. :*(

I can deal. I know they'll be in the area a lot, since they just released their new album.

I suppose that is it on the war front. I have yet to make an appointment for my tattoo. I'm hoping to get it done before vacation is over.

That picture is me in my pig mask. I felt sexy.

Who knew cinnamin rolls could be so dangerous

Yesterday I worked all day. It was so ridiculously boring. I was able to leave two hours early, because there really was no point of me being there. I had ended up cleaning the back room a lot. Organized some shtuff. I'm working up there yet again for 8 hours today. I don't want to. And again, there's really no point of me to. But whatever, I'll deal. I need as many hours as possible anyway. I'm going to be organizing a lot of stuff again.

I ended up throwing away about 8-10 boxes of expired syrup (for the drinks) which were still hooked up to the hose. One had expired back in March.....

Bitch is looking a little fatter. She doesn't have any diarrhea any more, but her eyes are still very poofy. I feel bad because she's kind of been blinded.

My new roommate is probably going to be a newbie. I hope she's ugly. I don't want her to be a slut, since I will be sharing a room with her. And she better not be an anime freak. I'll be pissed if she is.

I burnt my finger on a hot pan and it's really hurting right now. I don't like it.

So I suppose that's it. I have nothing else to say.

BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN: 18 days

Vacation has begun

SO COMMENCE THE JIGGLIN'!

Yesterday was quite the drama. I had to rush Bitch to the vet hospital because she was awfully skinny, her eyes were red and puffy, and she was really gross on her belly. I though she had the runs, and the book I own said they die within 2-7 days of getting it. Boy did I freak!

I got lost for a good hour trying to find the place, and when I finally did find it, they put me in a room and made me wait for an hour until the vet came along.

She pretty much tortured Bitch, squeezing her belly and pulling out an apparant penis of hers. It hasn't gone back in yet. I'm hoping it's not her intestines.

So the Doc said she probably has a bladder infection, and I have to give her an antibiotic twice a day for a week. I've only given it to her twice so far, and she already looks so much better! She's been eating a lot, her fur is clean again, and her eyes are starting to get better as well. And she's eating a whole lot.

I nearly passed out in the vet's because I hadn't eaten anything. They gave me a soda. It helped.

I talked to Dave lats night until about 1 in the morning. We were exchanging songs. It was fun, I really like his taste in music.

I worked all day today, and one girl quit, meaning I'm going to be working a whole lot more. Tomorrow I'm there ALL DAY. And I have to work with the new guy Tim, and I don't like him very much. I get a two hour break at 3, and that makes me happy. But I have to work at GAC alone for an hour or so, and I'm pretty sure I can't handle it. I'm still not completely familiar with all the products, nor do I know how much it all costs.

*Sigh* They better put my raise in my paycheck for this week. I will be so pissed if they don't. I was told that I may be getting overtime, which is fine with me (time and a half baby!) I really need to get my bank account up again. I have no clue how expensive next quarter will be. Hopefully not as bad as the last.

I think that Asians are staring to be attracted to me. Not sure why. Mexicans and Asians.

I am such a champion.

I need to be more social and less busy

So I am starting to believe that every guy here is gay.

Or I really am that disgusting.

Hrm. Questions questions but no answers.

Well, I had Greg (a gay friend) offer to take my virginity from me. But I'll only take his offer as a last resort. I mean, it would make one damn interesting story, but I'm thinking I would like a guy who is straight. And who would actually enjoy it.

Yes, yes, I have my eyes set on someone. Although I am afraid I scared his poor little self away. Why? Not sure. I thought he was interested but appearantly I was wrong. Very very wrong. So I suppose I must find someone else. REbound or not, I think he was pretty damn cool. And quite convenient as he lives right above me. So- that means I must attend as many concerts as possible and/or hang out every possible place that I can. I need to spread my horizons so to speak.

I'm pretty sure I'm coming off as a slut. And I don't mean to. I'm not only looking for sex. I mean, it would be wonderful if I could get that, but it would be even better to have a relationship. Maybe.

Argh I don't know any more. I don't know what I want. It's too difficult!

Steve was great but then he became a douchebag.

So I had to dump his ass. And I definately would have humped him, but he had some technical problems. So I didn't. Although technically I'm not a virgin. But- there has been no penis in vagina therefore I consider myself a virgin.

A year in college and still no action.

God I am pathetic. Well, I don't think it's me. I seem to attract those who are incompetant or just scared.

*Sigh* whatevah. It don't matter. I've always been afraid of dying a virgin. And with only 24 days until my 20th (that means I'm going to die- not sure of what exactly- but I'm thinking some medical thing. More than likely.) I have to get my ass in gear.

And what a damn fine ass that is.

God it's unbelievable the amount of bullshit that comes out of my mouth.

I challenge you to a duel

Well I had a quick one week stint of a rebound with the guy who lives in the room above me. Not too shabby. Damn hot. That's all that matters.

So this is finals week and I am highly doubting I am going to have everything done for today's class, nor do I think I'm going to have my project done for tomorrow. Which sucks a whole damn lot because I don't want to have to do it all over again next quarter.

So yes, I have moved on from Steve. Out of sight, out of mind. I still have some bitter feelings about how everything went down, but it's OK, I can deal with it.

I went shopping the other day and I bought some nice new sheets and comforter for my bed (and a couple of pillows!) My bed is so Goddamn comfy it's unbelievable. It's my little nest. Oh how joyous!

I also got some new clothes, just a couple pairs of pants and yet another jacket. I don't need them, I just really love jackets.

I received a random IM from my ex from a year and half ago's best friend. Not sure why. I'm thinking he was really really bored and felt the need to harass someone he hasn't in a while. Maybe he thinks I'm still into my ex. Hahahahaha that would be amusing.

So in about 26 days I will be having my 20th birthday. No more teenage crap. Woo hoo! I've decided that I want to lose my virginity before then. I was able to beat my first kiss date only a week before my 18th birthday. So I'm hoping I will be successful in this one as well. I just don't want it to come down to crunch time! Too much stress! So, I'll be on break before my birthday comes around. I'll have tons of free time. Any takers?

Don't doubt that I have all the moves down. I may still be a virgin but that doesn't mean I haven't done anything. I've done lots. Cause I'm good like that. And all my friends are guys.

So yes, anyone up for the challenge can come around and try.

No pun intended.