I've changed my mind.

Sparked by an intellectual conversation with Ace, I've decided I don't believe in soul mates.

I've led myself to believe that everyone has someone for them. I don't think so any more. Is it really such an astounding coincidence that two people like the same music? The same type of shoes? The same color hair? No. Not at all.

One thing I still do believe is fate. I don't think that's avoidable. It leads you along. To a certain point. It directs you sometimes. But it's how one takes it is what brings them to where they are. The end result however, will always be the same. No matter which path you took, good or bad. Simple or difficult.

Since I was a child, I could only picture myself living alone. Never with a spouse, family, even a roommate. I don't think I'm going to get married. Never thought I would. Never played it out in my mind.

I'm a drifter. Always have been, always will be. I don't feel sad about not getting married. I don't mind going in and out of relationships either. Each one is an adventure. Either way, I end up "alone." Being alone is my biggest fear in life. But, I don't think I will be alone. There will always be someone there. Whether it be friend, family member, boyfriend, neighbor, dog or hampster.

I'm afraid. Of not being successful. But I've always been able to get along. Somehow. No matter how hard it is. I make it through without collapsing.